My Broken Candy Heart

The day has arrived... It's Valentines Day DUN DUN DUUUUUNNNN.

I am extremely pessimistic when it comes to this so called holiday.
Some of my friends call me pathetic when I say I just want to sit on the couch and cry, but frankly, I don't care.
For me, I don't do well single. I have only had one boyfriend and well, let's just say that was an interesting few months..
But still, it was fun and I felt good about myself.
My biggest problem, and what many teenage girls biggest problem is self-esteem of course. We think so little of ourselves when we really shouldn't. But sadly, I cannot lecture anyone on thinking lowly of themselves, because if I did, it would be very hypocritical of me. I don't know why, but as much as my girlfriends and even family tell me that I am a beautiful young woman, smart, funny, caring, it's very hard to believe them. But when I had this so called boyfriend, I felt my self esteem climb and I just felt better about myself. I was happier because I knew that someone of the opposite gender that I was interested in finally felt the same way about me. But, all good things come to an end I guess. But new things can start again with time. At the moment, I don't really believe that myself, but I can say it anyways, can't I?

I'm trying to explain what you do to me
Why I think you're too good for me
But it's a long story baby
And the words don't even exist

Just a song I'm working on. It's actually finished, I'm just not putting it all up.

Anyways, although for couples today may be a very serious and important day, but for me, and other pessimistic singles, it's just another advertising gimmick, so you suck on my candy heart hallmark.

lots of pessimism,
the.(beautiful).let.down

<3