Every Time's The Last Time

You know when you like someone so much it hurts?
I'm beyond that now.
It's more like, liking someone so much you'd do anything and everything to stop hurting that's how bad you hurt.
You just want it to end.
And sometimes doing something stupid seems worth it.
Unfortunately, I'm not stupid.
It's not just this, this just, was the cherry on top, overloading the sundae.
A very large cherry.

I don't care if you think I'm over reacting, I know I am.

Lots of hate, rage, hurt, bad thoughts and violent wants,

the.(beautiful).let.down

<3


On the positive side, my hair is a little blue.

"It started with a handgun
loaded with excuses
I started faking it
And then we started breaking it
All the pieces used to fit
Using like it's going out of style
Maybe just a little while
And this will be the last time
Every time's the last time

Hey, don't you feel it now?
My shiny side down
Hey, burning brighter still
And you're getting stuck
And you fucked it up

It'll wear you down and wear you down
You chase it, breathing in and out and in and out
They'll push you up against the wall, against the wall
wall, against the wall
You didn't think you'd feel it all but you were wrong about it"

Push (marianastrench)


p.s. this was written last night, in a toil of emotion and rage.