We Don't Always See The Bright Side, We All Need Ego Suicide

^Line and Sinker-Billy Talent

I'm in Careers right now.
It's kind of boring so I decided to spend my time blogging :)

Tuesday was my birthday, as some of you may know. It was a really good day actually, one of the best ever. My friends were really great and my parents too. And I got to sleep in because of EQAO which was a bonus.

MOH WAS HERE. HE ENJOYS FUDGESICLES.

Ya, that was Moh :P

Thses past few days have been good.

Saturday as you may know from my previous blog, was a horrible, horrible day.
But Sunday was good, I got to see a friend in a boat/rowing race and then worked on a project with a friend. Well, we didn't do a lot of work, but it was good.

Recent events have really been bringing up issues that I have. Such as confidence and self-esteem issues.
You see, I like this guy. And he's really sweet, and we're friends and we talk.
And 'm being told to ask him out.
I really wish I could, but I'm so scared of rejection that I don't think I can.
And the reason I think he'd say no is because I don't think I'm anything special. I've been told I'm very pretty, funny, smart, but it's hard to believe people, just because I don't have a high self-esteem. I really wish I did because then I could ask him out with no problem, and maybe he'd say yes.
So I'm kind of just hoping he asks me out, so much easier lol :P

In other news, exams are less than a week away, I've barely started studying, and don't really plan on it. Okay, I plan on it but I'm just not motivated AT ALL. And I've been procrastinating like crazy, it's so bad. I just don't care anymore, which is so bad. I just have a lot of stuff going on, and it's making me put school on the back burner, even though school is what's going to get me out of here.

Well, it'll all be over soon, next wednesday to be exact.

Oh, I haven't written a letter in so long!

Dear Blank,
I kind of miss you, we haven't seen much of each toher lately. But it's just proving that I'm okay without you. But we're still friends, and I still love you. So we should hang out soon, so I can cash in my birthday present :P

Love,
Me

lots of procrastination,

the.(beautiful).let.down

<3

Strain this chaos turn it into light
I've got to see you one last night
Before the lions take their share
Leave us in pieces, scattered everywhere

Just give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Just give me something to hold onto

It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear cos you are all that I have
It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear cos you are all that I have

You're All I Have-(snowpatrol)