Maybe You'll Forgive Me And I'll Forget

^The National-Hannah Georgas

That lyric is kind of exactly how I feel right now. I just want to put this in the past and I don't really know why I can't. I guess I've just realized that it was my biggest regret and I hate having that on my shoulders. I just want to let it go and know that everything that happened doesn't matter and that I'm forgiven and I can put it behind me instead of it making such a huge impact on me right now. I just feel really unimportant. It's stupid but I just really suck at letting the past go, so I keep thinking of this. And I'm just thinking of the negative.
I kind of lost it last night, it sucked. Meh, there's always tomorrow and the next day and the next day. I'll just keep trying. I think that's all you can really do, keep trying and take it day by day. I think I'll just go take a shower and play some guitar and watch Grey's and eat brownies. I can't possibly get into a bad mood while doing any of that. At least I hope not.

lots of brownies and sister wives (new obsession),

the.(beautiful).let.down

<3

In the middle of the night, I may watch you go
There'll be no value in the strength of walls that I have grown
There'll be no comfort in the shade of the shadows thrown
But I'll be yours if you'll be mine

Stretch out my life and pick the seams out
Take what you like, but close my ears and eyes
Watch me crumble over and over

I have done wrong, so build your tower
But call me home and I will build a throne
And wash my eyes out never again

But love the one you hold
And I'll be your goal
To have and to hold
A lover of the light

Skin too tight and eyes like marbles
You spin me high so watch me as I glide
Before I tumble homeward, homeward

I know I tried, I was not stable
Flawed by pride, I miss my sanguine eyes
So hold my hands up...breathe in, breathe out.

Lover Of The Light-(mumfordandsons)