We Were Never Meant To Be This Damn Broken

I'm sorry.
For what?
A lot of things.

I just keep messing up and I don't know what to do anymore.
I still, I don't know. There's still something there. And I hate it because I know I'd be so much better off without him. But when ever I look at him there's this thing, I think it could be hope, and it gets me every time. I'm not generally a very hopeful or happy person, but when I look at him that all goes away and I guess I'm addicted to that feeling. But I know he's worse for me than he is good. Not because he's a bad person but because of the way I think of him. So I just need to change that and it would be fine. But I can't because I can't do anything nowadays. I'm so tired. So tired.

lots of apologies,

the.(beautiful).let.down

<3

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Never mind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Someone Like You-(adele)