All My Faces Are Alibis

I love learning new things about people.
I love talking to some of the most important people in your life about things that really matter
For 5 hours straight nonetheless.
Sometimes it hurt, not going to lie
Hearing about his life, about the way he thinks, it just makes me wish he could feel the same way since he's such an amazing guy and it would be great to have that. But at the same time he makes me hopeful that maybe other guys think that way too, and so I'll find one eventually.
I'm glad he can confide in us more now, trust us.
And it's really quite interesting getting a guys point of view on things.
Since I trust him so much, I can ask him things I've always wanted to know but never been able to ask, and I know that what he says is probably true for a lot of guys.
So overall a very good night.
And I got a back massage, so that just makes everything so much better :P

I hate how mental illnesses never really go away, it's always there, and people just have to live with them and it's not fair. Not fair at all.

I'm writing a poem. More of like, a spoken word thing. I'm not going to post all of it, too many questions will be asked, but I'll post the beginning.

And I look in the mirror trying to see what they see
What they say they see and I try to believe
That I am worth something more than the other
Fish in the sea
But my eyes are so fuzzy from the tears and the fears
And the television telling me what I shouldn't hear
And telling me who I have to be to be beautiful
And what I have to do to make my life full
Sex and drugs and cars and money
Have all that and life's sweet as honey
But it's not what I want and I'm not going to work
For something so stupid just for a few perks
Sure those people on screen live a charmed life
But I'd never want that
A life of ice

lots of new thoughts,

the.(beautiful).let.down

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