For You I'm Holding On

blamed, blam·ing, blames.
To hold responsible.
To find fault with; censure.
To place responsibility for (something): blamed the crisis on poor planning.
n.
The state of being responsible for a fault or error; culpability.
Censure; condemnation.

I am always to blame, and frankly I'm getting sick of it. I do not mean to piss anyone off obviously, and I don't ever specifically call someone out on something. But I get called out, and told off.
Ya, I know I missed 2 days, but don't go all "you didn't learn anything" on me, because I did. Please don't assume things, they usually make me feel like shit. As if I need that.

On to more important topics.
And no I'm not saying friendship is not important, I'm saying this is stupid, and I'm not going to go on about it and make myself look like the bad guy when there is no bad guy.
The trip was great, I learned a lot, intellectually and street smart wise. I guess you could go as far as it being a cultural experience? Maybe.
The concert is Thursday which is very exciting.
Perhaps more exciting though is Friday, which I kind of feel bad for saying because I'm just chilling with friends lol, but these hangouts are like, my saving grace, jeebus.
It's like one of those things, when you know that things are tough, and you have a lot to do, but you know you can get through it because you get to do that one thing that just makes everything better after all the stupid stuff is done with (a.k.a. school)
I've decided I'm going to fail French tomorrow. I am really starting to wonder why I took French in the first place.
I sang today at lunch, and after school a bit, and it was really nice to get back to practicing kind of, sigh of relief. Another one of those things that can always make you happy.
And happy is not easy to come by, let me tell you.
I may seem melodramatic, and maybe I am, but in time maybe it will make sense. And I'm sorry there are still unanswered questions, but I want to get better answers for you, and that's easier said than done. I still have a long way to go, some decisions to make, but maybe Friday will sort things out. One can only hope, as I am sick of this.

Lots of exhaustion,

the.(beautiful).let.down.

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