If You Find Me, Hide Me, I Don't Know Where I've Been

^crowd surf off a cliff-emily haines


Once in a while I act like a child to feel like a kid again
It gets like a prison in the body I'm living in
'Cause everyone's watching and quick to start talking
I'm losing my innocence
Wish I were a little girl without the weight of the world

It would be nice to start over again
Before we were men
I'd give, I'd bend
Let's play pretend

Remember the times we had soda for wine
And we got by on gratitude
The worst they could do to you was check your attitude
Yeah when fights were for fun
We had water in guns and a place we could call our own
How we lost hold of home I guess I'll never know

It would be nice to start over again
Before we were men
I'd give, I'd bend
Let's play pretend

And when it's the end our lives will make sense
We'll love, we'll bend
Let's play pretend

It's not gonna be long before we're all gone
With nothing to show for them
Stop taking lives come on let's all grow up again

It would be nice to start over again
Before we were men
I'd give, I'd bend
Let's play pretend

And when it's the end our lives will make sense
We'll love, we'll bend
Let's play pretend

Pretend-(lights)

Today was good. Childish, relaxing.
Difficult.

I'm tired and I'm going to go read, but those lyrics are more true than I'd like them to be.
We're going into grade 11. Next summer we'll be going into grade 12.
Then it's the rest of our lives and that's scary.
I can't handle it right now.
Hopefully I'll be able to eventually.

lots of childhood memories,

the.(beautiful).let.down

<3