They Say You're Really Not Somebody Until Somebody Else Loves You Well I Am Waiting To Make Somebody, Somebody Soon

^Are We There Yet-Ingrid Michaelson

I used to think it was easy falling in love.
I thought I'd have numerous boyfriends in high school.
That it would be like those movies where you really liked the guy, but you thought he never noticed you,
but then you find out he's liked you all along, and then he does something really sweet to show you this.
And then you're in love.
But it doesn't happen that way.

Everyone's careful
They're plotting their best escapes
For fear of this whole place burning down
Puzzles and pieces
We're tangled in cages
They rattle and shake their bones
They grew from the earth
I watched them grow
They came up and grabbed me

So stand in a world that seems to be built
On pillars and numbers
Or dance with the hopes of falling in love
Before we have learned to love ourselves

Puzzles and Pieces-(deasvail)

ya, if you think you can fall in love, and play the "low self-esteem need somebody to lean on" kind of girl then you're wrong. How can you expect someone to love you if even you don't love you? So what you have a few pounds you wish weren't there, so what you have pimples, so what if your boobs are small, so what if you wish your hair wasn't the way it was? NEWS FLASH. Get over yourself. No one is perfect. Insulting yourself for pity comments is NOT the way to go. So stop it. We all have imperfections, but in the grand scheme of things, the good things outweigh the bad. I've realized lately that I'm beautiful and I'd rather not keep thinking down on myself. Real compliments, just out of nowhere, are much better than pity compliments you get when you call yourself fat. Guys don't like that, sorry to break it to you. And shit talking yourself can lead to doing stupid things, some of which I've experienced first or second hand. It's self-destruction and it's not healthy. So next time you wonder why a guy hasn't fallen in love with you yet, look in the mirror and realize that the only way that will happen is if you fall in love with you first.

lots of new found self-esteem thanks to a beautiful girl who's gone through so much and has taught me more than I ever thought I could know,

the.(beautiful).let.down

<3