And Who's To Say That We're Not Good Enough?

^Who's To Say-Vanessa Carlton

You know those moments where something finally hits you, and you can't breathe?
It knocks the wind out of you, and you try not to think about it because it can't be true, it just can't be.
But the more you think about it, the more it makes sense.
And the more it makes sense, the angrier you get it.
Why do you deserve this?
Why didn't you see it before?
Why weren't you stronger?

You continue to blame yourself, even though that's part of the initial problem.
I know I'm all over the place sometimes, I know I say one thing and do the opposite, but I know what I want and what I believe.
I also know that this isn't my fault.

So, I have a new mantra. So far it's working.

You Are Not Inferior.

No one is better than me, and I am no better than anyone else.
I'm going to stand up for myself from now on, I'm going to be honest.
You say you can handle it, but then you get defensive when I say something you don't want to hear.
I'm sorry, but I'm no longer going to apologize for standing up to you.
This is my life and I'll believe what I want to believe, say what I want to say.
You Are Not Superior

lots of I don't even know anymore,

the.(beautiful).let.down

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I settled down
A twisted up frown disguised as a smile,
Well you would have never known

I had it all but not what I wanted
'Cause hope for me was a place uncharted and overgrown

You'd make your way in
I'd resist you just like this

You can't tell me to feel
The truth never set me free
So, I did it myself

You can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach out a little more

Open your eyes like I opened mine
It's only the real world,
A life you will never know

Shifting your weight to throw off the pain
Well you can ignore it but only for so long

You look like I did
You resist me just like this

You can't tell me to heal
And it hurts remembering
How it felt to shut down

Careful-(paramore)


I scraped my knees while I was praying
And found a demon in my safest haven
Seems like its getting harder to believe in anything
And just to get lost in all my selfish thoughts

I wanna know what it’d be like to find perfection in my pride
To see nothing in the light, but turn it off in all my spite,
In all my spite I’ll turn it off

And the worst part is before it gets any better we’re headed for a cliff
And in the free fall I will realize I'm better off when I hit the bottom

Tragedy it seems unending
I'm watching everyone i looked up to break and bending
We’re taking short cuts and false illusions just to cut out the hero

Well i can see behind the curtain
The wheels are creaking, turning
It's all wrong the way
We’re working towards a goal that's nonexistent
It’s nonexistent but we just keep believing

And the worst part is before it gets any better we’re headed for a cliff
And in the free fall i will realize I'm better off when I hit the bottom

Turn It Off-(paramore)